it’s a shame I may never have someone.
Today I blew it.
I was going to ask him but I chickened out.
Just like everything else.
Maybe it was better off because he was a sophomore but man.
I really… really, liked him.
Also I saw him for a while.
I almost didn’t see him at first, he happened to catch my eye with his.
I wish I didn’t feel about him the way I do.
But I know deep down it was best to let him go, though it kills me inside.
He’s happy now I hope, or he will be.
It just sucks because I think this kid really did like me, and I was afraid to give it a chance… am I always going to do this?
Am I always going to be afraid of taking chances and learning to break free and become a better person?
I’m sick and tired of being a wallflower, I want to bloom with others.
I just want to know what it’s like to have someone.
I want to fall in love again.
I want someone to fall in love with me.
I want to be happy, and I want to experiene this on my own.
why is it so hard to experience such a thing?
why does this happen to me, am I never going to get the only thing I’ve ever wanted in this world?
All I ask is for is a friend, someone I could go to and they wouldn’t have any problem with me, and would fall in love with all my mistakes and imperfections.
why can’t I find this person?
Am I not good enough?